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Day 2; December 6th, 2013

So, they guy I’ve been talking to and that I really like asked me out just now. I really wanna say yes, BUT idk if I’m over my ex completely. I don’t want to lose this chance but I don’t know if im ready, The thoughts that are going through my head right now are all over the place. I just hope I don’t regret saying yes…

Day 1: December 1st, 2013

I was talking to an old friend today about the recent relationship I had just gotten out of. All this time I thought it was my fault that our relationship went down the drain. I thought it was my fault that he was abusive. But I figured out my mental state was so out of it, that I was blinded by the personĀ  I thought he was compared to the person he really was. He was a monster. He had me so distraught from reality that I didn’t even know who I was as a person anymore. I had lost all sight of myself and I was okay with that. I was so in love with the thought of being in love that I didn’t care what happened. Or what he said. I just wanted to be with someone. And because of that I potentially could have been hurt seriously. But talking to a couple friends I realized that it wasn’t me and that I was the victim, not him. Yes I did say some things that shouldn’t have been said, but none of what I did or said made me deserve the things that happened to me. So, the morale of this, make sure you have people in your life that are there to help make sure you know what’s going on around you, even if you can’t see it yourself. Make sure you have those people that are going to be willing to tell you things that you don’t want to hear, but you need to. Keep people close and watch out for yourself,

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